I missed here, a lot.
Awesomealicia
Say out loud!
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Just watched a show online, somehow it taught me something.
Is people losing connection in reality because of advancement of technology, are we in fact too reliance on it? Can we even survive without our phone, tv and laptop just for a day?
I doubt so, instead of habit, I call it a deadly drug, once hooked, you probably can’t get rid and leave without it. Pretty true.
Ask yourself:
“Can you go out of home without your phone for an entire day?”
“Can you remember your friends and families numbers without looking at your phone?”
“Does your hand feel empty when you are not using your phone?”
“When was the last time you last wrote a letter?”
“When was the last time, you sat down with your friends, without looking at the phone once?”
These are just some of the many issues we face in our daily lives, as we improve, the relationships between people fades away. You always think texting is a way of communicating but behind the phone, are we sincere in what we say and project? Are you even sincere in texting the things you write or its just a regular basis “to-do” thing? Do you really care when your friend says, “I’m down, what should I do?”, will you make the effort to find he or she in person just to comfort them? When you type, “How’s life?”, are you really interested in their life or it’s just a casual term to use, or you are just curious and not even caring about it? You will probably go, “It’s not my fucking life, why bother so much since they don’t bother mine too.”
It’s a deadly cycle in people’s communication and interaction.
Can I get away from it? I don’t want my communicating to be in front of a flat smart phone screen. I want face to face chats, I want to hear real laughters, not the “HAHA” we used in handphone terms. I want to let people know what’s happening around me and they tell me theirs. Not through a phone, when you rephrase and rephrase and rephrase the things you wanna say just to ensure you said nothing offensive, hurting or whatsoever. I want first hand emotions, expressions, reactions, not sitting on the chair, staring at my whatsapp, looking at it emotionless and looking at the word “typing…” when you don’t know how know they will take to reply you.
I guess it’s too hard now, nobody does that anymore.
I just wanna be an old school kid without a nokia phone, texting with limited messages, call with limited minutes, meet my friends the next day happily, planning an outing 1 week in advance because we have no communication tools that allows long term access.
Can I just go back? I dislike the current despite all the comforts and conveniences I get.
Improvement in technology equals to distant in human’s relationship. So true.
Awesomealicia.
Seeing people around me creating different experiences and changes in life.
Makes me questions myself at times,
“What am I doing with my life?”
I’m slowly falling back to earth and face reality.
I realised:
I won’t have my parents to help me with anything in life when they leave me due to natural life cycle.
I won’t have sturdy friends to rely on when I meet with crisis, be it financial or others,
because you are never people’s priority unless they are your family. Humans are selfish beings, face it. I myself is a selfish being and I have full acknowledgement of it. People might never know but you yourself know the best. Don’t bullshit and tell yourself you can be selfless.
I don’t have savings yet, few hundreds are not savings, one day and they can be gone in a blink on food and wants.
I never had a plan for my “REAL” future in 1 and a half year to come, that will be when I’m ending uni if all went well. can I get a proper job?
I never paid a real bill on my own, when can I stop relying on my mum? I don’t even dare to go to a medical check up because I’m freaking conscious of my weight.
Every freaking year, my new year resolution would be lose weight but never once I fulfill it, then for what you make this resolution? idiot.
Now you know why I say, “What am I doing with my life?”
What a loser right, I know.
With 2012 coming to an end and a highly anticipated world end happening in 8 days. I should really start sketching a draft for my life. I might not want to face the life I’m gonna have for the fixed future but what can I do? I don’t dare to kill myself you know, life has to go on.
Well let’s do it then, hmmmmm…. start with savings and healthier weight for 2013.
Give it a try for now. whether be it a failure or what, at least I tried.
On random note, I do miss a little of my past, but there is a reason it’s called the past.
Stop wasting time in the present on reminiscing the past, do it when you are better achievement in life, at least that’s worth a comparison.
Stop procrastinating, live life with targets.
#usediaryappropriately
Awesomealicia.
hmmmmmm…. how to?
For now, study first, passion can wait.
After exams, let’s find something I have passion to pursue and make life more meaningful.
We all live once, why not make full use of it right.
Smile, because it’s not worth frowning.
Awesomealicia
Happy 21st Birthday, A.
You have aged and reached the people call it legal age 21, the big 21.
How big is it I’m not sure.
Well, time to really grow up now I guess.
No more fooling around. Time to settle down and do the things you need to do.
Stop disappointing your family and friends.
I don’t wanna be such a useless bum anymore.
Let’s do 21 wishes shall we?
Not really wishes, I call it expectations to self.
1. Time to grow up
2. Learn to give up things gracefully.
3. Appreciate people who really love you.
4. Love the people even more than they love you, because they deserve it.
5. Be responsible
6. Work hard in U for 2 years.
7. Put in more effort in things you do
8. Forgive and forget
9. Stop dwelling on the past, there is a reason why it’s called the past.
10. Pick up a hobby
11. Play sports again, leisure.
12. Learn to prioritize things that are important.
13. Happiness and health, wealth too please 🙂
14. Be happy and contented.
15. Think twice to any decision, know your limits.
16. Spend everyday meaningfully, at least happily.
17. Work hard for a better future.
18. Clear things up with people, put it to an end.
19. Do photography when you have the ability to get one yourself. Dont give it up!
20. Stay healthy, same to family and loved ones.
21. Happy “B”day A, its been a fun 21 years till now.
Let’s see how long I can stick to this.
Will review this 365 days later.
No party 21, no happening 21 neither happy 21.
All I want is a happy and peaceful 21.
With all the love from family and friends, life is not that bad afterall.
Thankful for people who love me. I love you guys too.
Naming one by one, I can’t do it.
You know who you are.
Happy birthday, gonna thank my mum for having me first.
Stay happy.
Ciaos
6th September 2012, 07 minutes to 21st.
Awesomealicia 🙂
My parents are like kids, seriously.
Just because my mum came home late, dad is pissed.
When dad comes home late, mum is pissed.
Just go out together lah, den jiu can go out how late jiu how late.
Me and brother really like don’t mind the older ones hanging out late.
Just stop acting like kids alright.
Childish, one more thing.
YOU TWO LAORENJIA GET WELL SOON OK!
I had enough of your coughing but what I really want is you two to get well, like seriously.
Be healthy and noisy or naggy again.
Although the naggy part didn’t change much!
Awesomealicia
My little diary (haha)
Today, Tuesday July 3rd,
I had dinner with my Ah Ma, Yi Ma and dear Hazel!
She had nobody to play with today.
Her parents wasn’t home yet, so I played with her.
We play with orange, rubber ball, lego, ducky, doggy.
Slowly we got close and she kept giving me smiles, toothy smile! :B
To be honest, she was never close to me cos
of the family attention from all other members.
BUT
Today, she gave me :
1) Tons of sweet toothy smiles.
2) Hugs like 3 or more! I don’t really get any during usual gatherings.
3) She poke my feet for 2 times to get my attention.
4) She let me carry her when she don’t really let me carry her.
5) She gave me THREE kisses! awwwww! she seriously sweet today!
6) She let me hold her hand when we left Ah Ma place together all the way to the lift.
7) She act mega cute towards me.
She, Hazel Chong Yu Chen, seriously made my day happy.
Like really happy! Thank you dearest baby in the family!
Hee, I had to record this, she made my day.
Love you Hazel! 🙂 Aunt Yoyo love you! 😀
Awesomealicia.
This two oldies are heading on a “Youth expedition project” to help paint a school in myammar/laos?
I don’t remember which country they are going.
This trip is so terribly planned for them, blame their awesome friend.
Money is wasted, time is wasted and it seems that its not really gonna help much from my point of view.
Nevertheless, I just feel sad for my parents to use so much effort on it and they seemed to be taken advantage by that friend. Whatever.
Just hope they have fun, travel safe, enjoy the process and come back safely.
One week alone with brother.
Please be peaceful and smooth sailing for all of us, be it their trip or the two of us being home alone.
DADDY AND MUMMY, PLEASE HAVE FUN AND SERIOUSLY TRAVEL SAFE.
I might be harsh to you guys about this stupid trip but I meant well.
Just take good care of yourself.
Love you guys.
Awesomealicia
Sometimes love is not about expressing it via money, gifts,sweet messages, handmade gifts.
It can just be as simple as just holding each other’s hands and walk the remaining path together.
When you need a hand, be it in your ups or downs, family is always there.
They are the people that would never choose to leave you.
Cherish them, love them.
Sometimes a random hug or a random I love you can make each other day better.
I’m a hug person though.
Never feel shy to express it, because the love is never ending.
I love my family, I’m proud to say and I’m lucky to have them.
Thank you my loved ones.
Awesomealicia.
Family.
Life I should say is really just moving along with the flow that is fixed for me.
Nothing happening, peace all the way, still poor with money and social life.
Like I care.
Sometimes, I find communication so hard, I wonder how I manage it last time without feel lethargic
or too brain consuming, why have things to be so hard now.
I still love talking in person, rather than facing this lifeless thing or phone.
Talking through another device is never the same as talking in person.
A simple text can mean so many different emotions.
Hi.
Hi…
Hi!
Sometimes you might not even mean what you wrote.
Because nobody is real behind a device or gadget unless you are face to face.
Emotions are directly portrait in front of you, be it sad happy angry, you can change as you want.
This is what I really what.
Give me a million texts, I rather want a 3 minute conversation with you in person.
No second thoughts, no deleting, no thinking, no waiting.
But wait, everyone is two faced right?
So meaning, seeing in person doesn’t mean they are real too.
Ok I really need technology out of my life, I need to see real people with a heart that is real to you.
But.
I myself don’t have, tsk.
So much for talking so much alicia, what’s the difference between you and all the fake people outside?
Equally fake. haha.
Whatever.
I miss typing without an ending just like this.
I miss being me, myself and I.
When will I come back? Maybe never till I lie flat 40 feets down the ground.
Awesomealicia (not anymore but I still use it)
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